The world lost a dear soul the other day.

He was one of the kindest, funniest, most lovable young men ever.

Him & I lost contact over the past two years & that saddens me terribly but I still thought about him from time to time & messaged him every once in a while.

He was very young and his loss is truly a tragedy.

The world lost someone amazing.

R.I.P. Ethan Shell

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Today I had a lovely day with my mama dukes!

Well, we were both pissed off but past that it was nice spending time with her.. bad mood or not.

We went to Marshalls & the diner.

I didn't pick up much from Marshalls.

A bubblegum pink shirt, a grey sweater, a photo book, & I put a bag on layaway (it's uber cute!).

Anywho, it was good times.

Yeah, I really want to do hauls but I'm uber lazy & I sortttta have to find my camera charger... hmm. That'll be on tomorrow's agenda & maybe, just maybe I'll do one tomorrow.

I think I'm going to do a massive haul of the past 2 weeks & save myself time.

I didn't buy a lot of interesting stuff but still....

some highlights?

Mac's Sable e/s (how did I not have this???), Stila kajal eyeliner in topaz (loveee), a black phone cover ha, urrr... cute clothes :o)

I legit think I have insomnia.. my aunt & me are always up into the wee hours of the morning & it's horrible.

The agenda for tomorrow (aka later in the day -- aka normal day hours):

1. cleaning my room

2. cleaning my car

3. foodshopping

4. coinstar

5. cooking dinner for my g-pa

6. seeing the babbles? (i hope!!!)

7. sleeping over zachary's :o)

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I went food shopping a bit ago & picked up some DunkAroos on my trip...

holy hell they're yummy.

Soo bad but soo good.

French went well... my teacher is very "in your face" but not in a bad way.. she's got a lot of character to say the least. And she had us speak (or to put it bluntly -- butcher) French. Usually the first class of all your classes is uber short & you don't do anything but pick up a syllabus... well not this morning.

I can say like 7 things now.. not well.. but still!

It was intimidating & if we're moving this fast already then holy jeebus what is the rest of the semester going to be like?

Tis nuts.

I drove around calling my cats name before.. still no sign of him & that makes me sad :o\

I hope he's just wandering around and will be back by this weekend. Otherwise I'm going to make fliers and stuff.

Alright, time to go nanny & then I get to see my babbles!

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School starts tomorrow.. hmm.

I feel like break was so short when in all actuality it was like a month.

I have Intro to French tomorrow & I'm uber nervous, ha.

And I'm really not a morning person & I have class at 10 am... which may not sound early to you all but to me it's like hell. For reals.

Anywho I did some small shopping today & I want to start hauls soon so that'll be on the agenda for this weekend.

Okie dokes, Zach is waiting on me to go to sleep so I'll blog tomorrow about French.

Fingers & toes crossed!

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Random...

In one of my lj groups there was a tag of 50 random facts about you & I thought if someone comes across this, you can learn about me. IF anyone comes across this, hahah.

I created this blog for people to read... eventually.

So onto the 50 facts

1. I'm not sure of my actual height.. I always say 4'11 but it may be 4'9 or 4'10.. who knows

2. I snort when I laugh (obvs attractive haha)

3. I'm a bit of a shop-a-holic

4. I spend most of my evenings on YouTube looking for new make-up gurus to watch

5. I'm a huge video game nerd

6. I've never had a cavity or a broken bone

7. My favorite color is green and 2nd is pale pink

8. I have 8 piercings (& I want to re-pierce my nose)

9. I read books faster than anyone I know

10. My bf and I have tattoos of each other's initials

11. My favorite people on this planet are my siblings (& then my bf)

12. I want to be on Broadway

13. I'm a huge pack rat.. it's a problem

14. I really ♥ Emeralds

15. I lose stuff all the time & then find it months later

16. My bf & I speak in British accents when we talk to each other late at night (we're goofs)

17. I'm trying to find a name for my car

18. My cat Ollie is missing right now :o(

19. I can speak gibberish

20. I miss all my NY friends

21. I love making friendship bracelets

22. I have a phobia regarding lice

23. I teach theatre & nanny part time

24. I'm loud.. very loud

25. Fall is my favorite season

26. I'm trying to clean my room right now but I'm failing epically

27. I live with my Grandpa -- who is awesome

28. I still make pinky promises with a kiss

29. I really want to travel to London & France & Ireland & Germany!!!

30. If you hold my nose I'm convinced I can't breathe

31. Wrists scare me

32. I have trust issues

33. When I'm walking in the dark I call my bf/fam so I'm not alone

34. I've never been in a physical fight

35. I don't talk to one of my bff's a lot and it bugs me

36. I love leopard print

37. I collect candles & little boxes

38. My style varies often

39. Veggie dip is my favorite snack

40. I always have gum in my purse

41. I spazz when I don't have my phone with me

42. I have tiny wide feet & therefore hate shoe shopping

43. While on feet, I have wide calves and therefore can never find boots that fit over them.. it sucks. (End rant)

44. My main family all lives within 5 minutes from my house.. even less if I don't have to wait at a light

45. Clerks was filmed in my hometown.. oh yes.

46. I have Ninja Turtle slippers -- they rock

47. I have a "signature" pose (duck lips)

48. My style changes every other day practically.. it's frustrating

49. Sunflowers & Daisies are my fav flowers

50. My mom is 16 years older than me and I'm 15 years older than my siblings

and one for good luck!

51. I'm actually really girly even though I have the mouth of a trucker

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That took long, jeebus. Now back to cleaning my room and some pasta w/ vodka sauce for din din.. mmm.

Books & Such...

Okie dokes, I'm going to put a list of recent reads & re-reads. These are all recent (after Christmas I bought most of these) so yeah. I'll probably be editing this post once it's done b/c I'm bound to forget one.

New Finds:

Vibes by Amy Kathleen Ryan: Okay so I liked this book BUT their was a lot of unnecessary boob talk. It was about how large her chest was and about boys imagining touching it, etc. It was just awkward. Otherwise the book was actually quite decent. The loner "freak" girl gets partnered up with the most popular boy in school -- they have a past which neither one has forgotton about -- and you get the idea. Oh, I forgot to mention Kristi (the main girl) can read minds.. so yeah, it's a great little twist to the book. I know whenever I was asked "if you could have any superpower what would it be?" and I would say "well to read minds or to fly, duh".... with this book you see the downside of being able to read the minds of those around you. Ex: Misinterpreting what someone's thinking. All in all it was a cool concept and I liked Kristi's character and putting myself in her world (so to speak). And I REALLY enjoyed that Kristi was a bitch. A downright bitch until she realized it was wrong. The character is just a screwed up kid and I know I can relate to that, ha. You also got a real sense of highschool again and I really enjoyed that the school wasn't a typical highschool but a more of a "free spirit, one with your surroundings" type of learning deal.
Ratings: 4 out of 5 -- the boob talk was totally over-the-top and didn't add to the plot.

The Pretty One by Cheryl Klam: This was probably one of my most favorite finds! Two sisters, one totally gorg & the other the ugly ducking, at the same school (an artsy one where you have to audition to get in(except for the techies)). Short Summary: The older sister (the pretty one) is best friends with her younger sister and gets her to go to the school dance. Younger sister goes into the bathroom and older sister and her friend go in and start shit-talking about the younger sis. Low and behold Megan (the younger sis) comes out of the stall and runs out of the school and gets hit by a car, thus destroying her face. Lucy (the older sis) feels uber guilty but Megan, with tons of surgeries, gets her face back but better - she's now just as gorgeous as Lucy. Lucy in turn becomes jealous of Megan and Megan is just trying to figure out where she fits in this "new" world of beautiful. Generally all this pretty "uppity uppity" stuff wouldn't be my type of read but this was just wonderful. The characters were SO well developed and you truly felt like you were experiencing the changes with the characters.
Ratings: 5 out of 5 -- I really did like this.

Lock and Key by Sarah Dessen: I'll start off by saying I love Sarah Dessen, always have & always will, and I was quite surprised by this book. Her books always have some sort of sadness to the backstory but this was for some reason a lot more real to me at least. The main character Ruby has an alcoholic for a mother and basically has raised herself and keeps things going for the both of them. Then her mother is nowhere to be found and the people who own Ruby's home find out she's been living alone with no running water or anything and they send her to go live with her older sister Cora and her husband Jamie. Ruby thought that Cora just up and left her & her mother but in turn it was that her mother lied to Ruby about Cora trying to get ahold of them, the same with their father. So their relationship is a bit rocky at first until Ruby realizes Cora never abandoned her the way she thought. Throw in a hot next door neighbor, a private school, some abuse, and a chance at a new life and you've got yourself a winner in my opinion. Like I said, I feel like every one of Dessen's books have a bit of "learning from past mistakes" or "letting go" etc etc and although this one had that as well, it felt a bit different. The sisters find out their mom is in rehab and they don't know what will happen next.. idk. I know that's a reoccuring theme in her stuff but it just felt so much more heavy this time. Maybe I find it more relatable then a summer love and it's possibilities but yeah.. I love all of her work regardless.
Ratings: 5 out of 5 -- I may be biased here with her material but she always pulls me in

Uglies, Pretties, Specials by Scott Westerfeld: This is actually a four book series but I'm in the middle of Specials right now. The fourth book is Extras which has been purchased already but not read yet and I'm sorta on the fence about it because it really isn't apart of the Tally's story but we shall see. Anywho, my bestest friend recommended this series a long time ago but I never got around to them -- dumb move on my part cause they're great! At first it was a bit of a slow read for me but I did get really into them. Tally Youngblood is the main character of the books and I liked reading the book from her perspective. The jist of the story is this: Our time is over because we were stupid and then this new age is here and you go through phases: littlies (I may have spelled that wrong), being an ugly, being pretty, middle pretty, and a crummy. On your 16th birthday you become a pretty -- which is when they re-shape you and make you gorgeous (this way everyone has equal opportunities) and life is basically a huge party until you become older or pick a career. I can't say too much on this because then it gives away too much info but trust me.. it's a great read. There's running away, bff drama, crushes, The Specials (who are kinda like the CIA/FBIto our times), trouble, tricks, etc. It's really great.
Ratings: 4 out of 5 -- just because I'm not done yet. I will re-evaluate this at a later date, ha.

Re-reads:

The Hunger Games & Catching Fire: Can I just say how excited I am for the third book? I re-read these often because they're so great. It's another story about our world/time is over and they new government created 13 sections and each section has their own jobs for the Capitol (where the President and rich people live). Every area is poor and there are only 12 sections left b/c 13 revolted and lost and they destroyed them all. The hunger games were created to remind the people of the remaining sections that you can never win against them and that you will be punished. For the hunger games each area (except the Capitol kids) has a drawing where one male and one female are picked to go into the games. There's 24 total kids sent and only one person can come back the winner. A lot of the families are poor and if you put your name in more than once you can earn (I forget the name of the stuff.. starts with a "t" - tessenerea or something like that, I'll look it up later). So yeah, a lot of the poor kids put themselves in a lot to earn this stuff for the families. Katniss (the main girl) has hers in loads but it's her sister Prim (who has her name in once) who gets picked. Katniss goes in for her and a boy who did a kind deed for her goes in as well, his name is Peeta. I'm NOT going to say anything more because it's just too good and you should go read it NOW!.

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A new year..

I can't believe it's 2010 already... jeebus! I haven't made a list of resolutions yet but I figure for my post here I'll do it right here for all to see (that way I feel a bit more compelled to keep them). One of my favorite make-up gurus on youtube has a blog and she is the inspiration behind my getting one (so thank you laura)(not that you'll ever see this). My point in starting this blog is that although I'm no expert on any topic really, I will provide tid bits of my life and my opinions on make-up products, broadway, and everything & anything. I guess I'm a bit of a shop-a-holic... even though I'm a broke college student. I'm not amazing at make-up but I LOVE it. I am milding obsessed with Broadway, Twilight, & books in general. My hopes for the future are for me to be on Broadway or in National Tours -- musical theatre & me are bff, haha.

SO, time for a New Year's Resolutions

1) LOSE mothereffing WEIGHT - this is the biggest goal I shall undertake this year and it will happen or well... it'll suck. I want to do it to become healthier & to be the cutest brides maid at my best friend's wedding :) hahaha. It may sound like a ridiculous reason but it's something to make me push myself... so yeah. So diet & exercise here I come.

2) Try to be nicer - it's not that I'm not nice... I can just come off bitchy at times. Although I hate to say it I sometimes am quick to judge and who the hell am I do that? I want to give people more chances and stop saying things about others before knowing them. I have a tadddd bit of an issue with girls at first meeting and it's wrong & evil -- so I'm going to work on that. I am a very caring person and I feel like this behavior does not show that and it's not cool.. so buh-bye cruelty.

3) Save some money - I part time nanny, teach theatre & babysit. They all pay well but during the school year the hours just aren't there (for nannying/teaching) and that's my main mula so yeah... I need to learn how to create a savings and not spend it in a moment of "ahhh, I have to have that!"

4) Save money for something nice - I know this almost contradicts the one prior to this but I'll create two savings. I tend to spend my money on a shirt here or there or a new make-up product or books; and while they're all well worth it I always see something big that I really want but I never save up for it. So I really want to get a nice item for myself.. I want to feel proud that I got myself that expensive (etc). On this list: a speedy bag, glossy dior sunglasses, a nintendo ds, a ps3 for my bf, etc.

5) Boyfriend Loving - my bf & I are both crazy stressed right now due to family shit & school & all that jazz, and sadly sometimes I take my stress out on him. He does it as well but it's not as drastic as mine... therefore I want to work on controlling my anger and stress level and shizzle. He is the biggest rock in my life and I need to remember he's there for me.. not against me.

6) Work on my grammar - I used to be great with this but I feel like I've lost all of my knowledge on this matter, ha. It's sad. I'm a great speller (usually) & I love writing and reading but my grammar blows.

7) Love myself - this is pretty self - explanatory. I need to be better to my self.

8) Volunteer/Get More Involved - I'm pretty busy but anything small can help, whether it be me dedicating time to places or just donating stuff. I just want to do something to help.

9) Do my homework - well this is obvious but I don't always do it. I'm still an A/B student but I really need to commit myself more.

10) Start auditioning again - I miss auditioning in the city and feeling competitive and waking up at 3 am to get in line for an audition. I miss the city in general but regardless I want to start going in more and getting my butt into gear! It's the career I want and therefore I need to get out there.


And those are 10 simple goals I'm looking to maybe get accomplished this year. My next post is going to be a books list of recent reads of mine and what I think about them, etc.

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